Why am I consistent and persistent?

Perseverance can turn a Hard luck to Good luck!!

I was very unlucky for myself since childhood. I have many physical shortcomings. What physical work takes 15 minutes for others to accomplish takes me an hour. But I was good in studies, I was very good at analyzing texts since childhood. Especially fiction, history, science and political science. I have been persistent since then and ongoing after years spent in medical school and now as a Professor in my field. My story is my physical fitness and so it is kind of boring. What is interesting is that I am managing with efficiently and not without my insufficiencies.

This unlucky person prayed for everyone and amazingly God responded. I thought I am abundant because the almighty listens to my prayers for others. So when things were like bad for me for no reason, something like:

“If their luck was out there would be even more holidays than usual”- Tarun J Tejpal

I started to pray for myself, and to my surprise, Gods became deaf!! So this almighty is full of conditions with me. I am not supposed to pray for myself!! Hilarious!! The almighty tricked me to think that my prayers will always be answered, condition- don’t talk about yourself….don’t pray for yourself you loathsome girl!! Now where to go? So;

“Always have clear in your mind that ‘the grass is not greener’ elsewhere, and how everything is the same here as on the top of a mountain, or on the sea-shore, or wherever you will”-Marcus Aurelius

Then I decided to trick the almighty, I only said thanks and sorry in front of the altar. Simply continuing with all my aspirations with consistent perseverance, increasing my knowledge and capabilities. I love what I do and that’s it. No expectations from the almighty, he hardly listens.

I took my responsibility. And here comes a revolution with thinkers and practitioners who love to prepare, plan, work, progress and bring success to themselves, like me. But they became competitors, they started back-stabbing me……they were tricking me like the almighty, those trespassers were not with me, those smiling away in compassion did so with malice and no real respect for me!!

Sugar-coated rivalries and mutinies I was facing everywhere, but no worries, I showed perseverance consistently, diligently and with patience. Now they cannot harm me. You cannot harm a person who is deeply wounded and harmed already. I do have a good salary, I practice my subject that I enjoy and so that’s about it.

I am not depressed. I am a fighter. So let me be for now, till I go to some mountain top and figure out the sea. It is same everywhere, so I am consistent here and will be there.

When you do not expect, you are enabled to take your own responsibility. Self awareness, struggle, hard work I learnt from the stoics, it works for me. And I am happy. I think the almighty wants me to have faith in my independent decisions. So God is still with me!!