The past 10 years were mind boggling for me too. But my situation is such that I don't even try to think what the next 10 years that I might live will be like, despite great accomplishments. So I am happy, Let's choose to smile deliberately at everything. We don't need faith to be happy and neither someone we care for. Our call is different. When life is all jitters, and no one cares for your tantrums, you need smugness. Not a biblically right thing but try...live smug, pamper yourself...discipline yourself and see the difference. I have an I'll fate, cursed but still no preaching here, be smug. Thanks for sharing. It means a lot to read you, like me. I have no friends is not right. We don't want friends is smug. A great savior.