If you want to become spiritual

Exchange places with those who lost their life but never gave up on living.

Untimely deaths affect me a lot. Not due to a fear factor but instead I put myself in their shoes. I imagine the unfulfillment of dreams till their last breath. If I become God, I shall grant long life to all children dying of cancer, the drug abusers trying suicide, even those criminals about to be hanged. Mostly I think what they think during their last breath- about their mother or friends or about a career……it is unfortunate that someone dies before the time comes, before biological senescence.

I have worked with cancer patients, there have been a couple of untimely deaths in my family also and now I am fed up of the fear that nothing should happen to my family.

I keep reminding myself, nothing, no worries, all will be well. This feeling of attachment shall go away, my thoughts hold no important evidence, it will pass by. All are keeping good. They are safe.

So I do not claim to be a spiritual person. I believe in becoming a good person first. Exchange places with those who know they have lost their lives. Would they still sing psalms. Wouldn’t they indulge, celebrate each day alive? But they are bald, ugly and pain pills do not let them become joyous like your 80 years old granny, they cannot bring themselves out of their head, and they cannot manage their crisis. What else can they do but regret smoking, alcohol, genes, radiation and so on. Will you tell them the most used word-GROW, manage yourself? Wouldn’t they consider their life’s call, they would write their autobiography or leave their grand children with wisdom?

What if you are young and your grand parents were pathetic, you are unmarried with ovarian cancer, the chances of survival are very low and are there chances that you can give birth? People say do charity, would you like that or leave your mark?

What the hell everyone suddenly loves their religion. People eve teasing daily comment that this person is not religious, she refutes our Gods and so this person is ill fated and sick. They label you as someone full of vices. The people who are too sick are playing a fool out of themselves with wrong intentions!! You deprive acceptance and pure love to someone who is family and has always taken care of you. This person does not have pride but has enough self-respect and will never beg for acceptance. This person has stopped living due to cancer. Have some shame.

My uncle married another woman after his wife died out of leukemia. He did not wait for even an year to let the children come out of grief. He was happy kissing his new bride. Such is the lust of humans. And another misfortune, the dying person doesn’t have support and experiences all emotional obstacles.

The family prays for this cancer person that life should be taken away as she is suffering. They want to invest her money and reap fruits of her hard work. The work place challenges her and asks her to quit and take rest at home. So damn obnoxious!! And then a spiritual healer online says let go off your pride. Beg for mercy or beg for acceptance, allow them to condescend you because you are a great girl and those around are not friends, so let go and live in peace sleeping, coloring, painting and endure your pain till death.

A warrior Karana fought unarmed with all defenses stolen by the Lord. He was a giver, so he gave up his shield and foolishly fought Arjuna thinking he could win. But only me, yes I admire his courage and devotion towards his call to action. I love him after limitless years since his demise, packed unadmirable in the epic called Mahabharata. He killed an army but was spiritual enough to let the protection go, stand bare in the war and consequently lost his life.

So there is this cancer girl, this suicide attempter and these criminals, add on life to years. Make a comeback. Be alone in your legacy, do not love your family and friends, they are selfish so do as much as required as a dutiful person. Remember to live a life worth living.