I do not react because I am unsure of their role, I have faith instead!!

Lately, my imaginations have taken a leap.

Sometimes your inner jargon becomes unpredictable. What happens when your mind becomes unreasonable and uncontrollable. You tend to imagine stuff because the jargon makes lose faith on others, you become angry, become negative and loathsome in your own eyes. Simply put, your thoughts have become a pain in the ass. You tend to impose your thoughts on others, thinking that they are the source of this pain. This insight triggers you to react.

We must channelize this energy, and imaginations to gain back control. I am not saying that I become a control freak to counteract my imaginations.

For example, while drinking tea this Sunday morning, I imagine that I have an impact upon the people around me and they are dancing on my tunes and this calls for a destined leadership. This concept could be partially true, but reality may be that I am a tiny speck in this universe, no one bothers to listen to me and my plans. Who am I, an infinitesimally small person without any say leave alone someone who has an impact. What to do? React?

Although it is desirable to seek a balance between the two, sometimes it becomes difficult. My work then to prevent this self loathing is to love myself and become what I had planned and not what others want me to be.

Create to not let your imaginations become futile. This is my soul’s call. To love to live, we need to let imaginations go through a reality check. Aimless and shameless beliefs about myself need to be abolished at this very instant. I need to work on what I planned and not what the cues from outside compel me to think about myself. And if I cannot control my thoughts as well as the role of others in instigating these imaginations, I think I should not react.

It could be imagination or reality, it does not matter. And I will not get to the bottom of this. I will do this, I will create, learn, teach instead.

This can end the dilemma. This will be comfortable for me in comparison to moments when I wasn’t, others do not matter now. I will have more of my family and friends. But even they do not matter anymore. I shall talk to people and enjoy them, not my thoughts. I am almost back to who I used to be.

Those who go through this writer’s jargon, can really become prolific with the help of this teaching and learning experience. Our motive is always to create and evolve and be an example to others. How much you learn according to your tastes and fantasies is the ultimate aim of life. Do not react until you know the truth about other people’s role. Others can be saints or devils, it depends on how you are viewing the world, it is not a reality. Why not let others be, and let yourself be. When you do not know their role, be in peace and do not react.